There are times in my life,

That I feel so sad and blue,

Its because I feel I’m a failure,

As my dreams never came true!

All I have to give is love,

I give it freely,

I give and I give and I give,

There’s none left for myself,

I ask myself if I can do it ,

knowing deep down I can't ,

but the aching failure follows me,

and calls me back again !

I cry inside,

My heart bleeding,

No matter how hard I try,

I seem to fail,

I might as well stop now,

End my life here!

Its all my fault,

For all its worth,

I know I tried!

I've been a failure for as long as I can remember,

Never been happy,

And honestly never will be,

Failure at loving myself,

Failure at an education,

Failure at being happy,

Failure at wanting to live,

As the leaf falls,

Words fail me again!

The fire inside my eyes,

Creates an inner feeling of suicide ,

I'm a sinking ship,

With no cargo !

Tomorrow marks the beginning of the end,

You all tell me not to worry so much,

But I still do.

always the helper,

never the helped,

I push and I push,

and all I get are shoves,

I reach for the stars, 

and I always land in mud!

maybe one day,

maybe one final push,

and I'll be amongst the stars!